Journaled my Breakthrough!

Day One

Wouldn’t you know! It was when I was facilitating a journal class on the fifth chakra (throat – communication) that it all came to me. In one of the writing exercises I realized how great it was to have the support I am receiving in my business. I have a Mahfuzul who does my websites, Filip who edits the sound on my mp4s, Robert who fixed my Outlook issues, and Julie who is absolutely the best bookkeeper ever! Great awareness.

The next sentence stem was picked by one of the students. We wrote  “What I need to change is. . .” Well, was I ever surprised!

My writing went like this. What I need to change is what I need to change. What the __ does that mean? A little anger here. Some pain is coming up. My face – there is pressure near my eyes and cheeks. I am feeling defensive and protective of myself. This really hit a nerve. What? I am breathing deeply. My solar plexus is tight. My throat is closing up. Okay this is the 5th chakra so let’s talk about my thyroid. I have a lump on my thyroid the size of a plum. Okay. I am getting clearer. I feel like crying. I feel hopeless around my weight . . .

Private journaling information –

. . . I have been talking today about how good it feels to have help, support, work as a team. I am sad about (relationship ending – touch, oxytocin, etc.) My dad and I cuddled and I gained weight because he and I ate all the sugary foods. I do want to create a relationship where I can be supported by someone when I work out and get healthier. I don’t want to wait for a relationship. For this part I will get a trainer. Oh, that feels better. Whew! Again, I don’t have to do it alone!

Karate

What I realized is that even though I am very self-motivated, in this area of my life, I am NOT! I do need help.

When it was my turn, I shared my writing and my “ah-ha” with the group. One of the women shared that she meets with her trainer 5 x a week. She said she lost weight but needed to build muscle and it was doctor recommended!

So I am making an appointment with an athletic trainer!

Are you ready for a breakthrough?

Iwannabeaskinnybitch!

Advertisements

3 Comments on “Journaled my Breakthrough!”

  1. Karen Schmidt says:

    No problem with the blog title, I think it’s great!

  2. Melody Berreth says:

    I also struggle with this very same issue. I think I eat and carry a few extra pounds for self protection. I will explain that in person. Early childhood trauma!

  3. We can all support each other Melody. Sign up for the blog by sharing your email at the right! I will move into the emotional issues related to eating and weight gain in future blogs.


Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s